i've been messed with, let down, and played too many times. i wonder what people think of me too much, and i'm way too judgmental. my heart is big but i have my selfish moments. i love to be in big groups, but i also love to be alone. every song on my ipod has a special memory or a regret behind it. i don't like going through old pictures because i miss what used to be. i tend to over think things and i trust way too many people. i have the people i'd love to pack up and leave with, and there are some people i wish would just disappear. i don't cry very often, but when i do i can't stop. i hate the word goodbye and i wish it didn't exist. i hate liars, though i lie myself. i have secrets hidden in me that even i don't know. i'm still finding things out about myself, so don't be quick to judge. 

ever since i was young, i never really understood anything about the world. and i never understood anything that happened in my life. the only thing that ever made any sense to me was you. and how i felt about you. that's all i've ever known. and that's enough for the rest of my life.

i just got really hurt and sometimes when that happens, something inside just shuts off.



i want to be hard for you to forget. i want to have the kind of impact on you where you know you'll never find anyone who can take my place, because that's what you are to me. i want it to hurt like hell when you see me. i want you to feel what you put me through. 



Running, down corridoors through, automatic doors
Got to get to you, got to see this through
First night of your life, curled up on your own
Looking at you now, you would never know



i've seen christmas lights reflect in your eyes.



oh and one more thing kid; you'll never find another me.

now a days, it's practically impossible to be sure about anything. but i'm positive about this, i want to be with you. there's only one of every person and no matter how much alike they may be, there's never going to be another you. you're the one i want.

 
“The only true painful goodbyes are the ones that are never said and never even explained.

it's what we all wish for. a reset button. take two. a second chance.

if we were alone and it was absolutely silent what would you say to me?

"two people can look at the same thing and see it differently"

I mean, the thing is, no matter what we do, no matter how hard we work, no matter how good we are at what we do, this is never going to end.

 

Every day I fight back the urge to text you, telling myself that if you wanted to talk to me, you would

Maybe it doesn't really matter if you wear your heart on your sleeve or if you lock it up in a box away from the world. In the end, everyone gets hurt.

someday, you're gonna wind up all alone, and you'll have no one to blame but yourself.

i like dead end signs. i think they're kind; they at least have the decency to let you know when something's ending.

I understood why she did it. At that moment I knew why people tagged graffiti on the walls of neat little houses and scratched the paint on new cars and beat up well-tended children. It was only natural to want to destroy something you could never have.

My biggest mistake i ever made was thinking you were different. Turns out you're just the same like everyone else

God sometimes removes a person from your life for your protection. Don’t run after them.-

let me live without this.

& you pretend for us

and you pretend for them

this fairytale will make them jealous of you.

If you hold back feelings because you're afraid of being hurt, you end up hurting anyway.

Sometimes you've got to run away to see if they will follow.

I never knew what I had until the first day it wasn't there.

i tend to walk around the house at night like i have a gun, and pretend i'm an fbi agent, because it's dark and serial killer could jump out of the curtains and murder me.

that way if they come i can be like

only my gun is really just my hand because i might drop a gun, and shoot my foot off.

i'm sorry

my brain is irrelevant. 

the point isn't to live forever,it's to create something that will

Penelope, 03x09

Exit Wounds, 05x21

Outfoxed, 05x08

What Happens At Home, 06x10

The Slave of Duty, 05x10 

Big Sea, 06x23

Big Sea, 06x23

Big Sea, 06x23

Every episode in the history of Criminal Minds

In Heat, 03x17

i could forgive you  and forget everything that happened. but that wouldn't make it any better 
we'll never be able to go back to the way it used to be. you had the world in your hands, 
but instead you threw it away. so don't expect me to feel sorry for something that was your own fault.

It happens to everyone as they grow up. You find out who you are and what you want, 
& then you realize that the people you've known forever don't see things the way you do. 
& so you keep the memories, but you find yourself moving on.

I guess that we're both to blame...For all these conversations that have
 made us start to throw this away. Again, I know we can change. If we don't disappear.

i'm done. i'm done revolving my life around someone who doesn't care.
if you ever need me, i'll be here. but this time, you will come to me.

isn't it scary thinking 
that if just one little thing had been different, 
you might not know him right now

And in the end, when it’s all said and done, it will always be me 
and you, nothing can break us. And there is nothing we can't overcome

If you can't solve it, it isn't the problem-it's reality. & sometimes reality is the hardest thing to understand, & the thing that takes the longest to realize. But once it hits you in the face, you'll never forget it. It will always be there in your memories and sometimes that is the best way to look at it.

i don't understand how you can smile all day long but cry yourself to sleep at night. How pictures 
never change but people in them do. How your best friend can become your worst enemy, or 

 turns into your best friend. How forever turns into a few short months that you'd do almost anything to get back. How you can let go of something you once said you couldn't live without. How even though something is best for you, 

it hurts the same. How the people who once wanted to spend every second with you, think a few minutes of 

their time is too much to spare. How people make promises despite knowing how common it is for promises 

to be broken. How people can erase you from their lives just because they think it's easier than working things out.



love me when i least deserve it, because thats when ill need it the most.

t's just one of those days where nothing makes any sense. Everything goes against your favour. All you want to do is scream and get away. Nothing matters to you and all you want is to be left alone.



Over thinking ruins you. Ruins the situation, turns things around, makes you worry, and just makes things worse than they actually are.



 You are going to lose people in your life. And I realize that no matter how much time you spent with them, or how much you appreciated them and told them so, it will never seem You like it was enough.



It's sad when people you know become people you knew. When you can walk right past someone like they were never a big part of your life. How you used to be able to talk for hours and now you can barely even look at them



But most of all, don't forget this. Don't forget that you deserve love, and nothing less. Never anything less



So take a bow because you've taken everything else. You played the part, like a star you played it so well. Take a bow, because the scene is coming to an end. I gave you love, all you gave me was pretend